off to nicaragua!

[zalcero]

I finished my core seminar class on Friday, which marks a little over 5 weeks here in Central America. My paper is turned in (gracias a Dios!), all 13 pages and all, and I “graduated” from my Spanish class as well (they had a little ceremony for us) complete with graduation certificates and abrazos y besos from our Spanish professors.

I’m leaving for Nicaragua tomorrow (Monday) at 6:00 am –and will probably be in the bus for most of the day. I have everything I need for 10 days in my lovely northface mochilla and will be living at a retreat center for 4 days and with a new family for 6 out of those 10. I went to “Pequeño Mundo” with some friends and got lots of things for ridiculously low prices. I bought some medicine to hopefully make my skin unattractive to bugs -- I have started a “war on mosquitos” this semester since I was eaten alive a few weeks ago (my legs are still recovering) and am determined to not let those bugs win – we shall see if this stuff works! I am a little nervous for this next adventure, but also excited about the things I will get to learn, see, and experience.

I read about Nicaragua and its horrific history of corrupt political leadership, tyranny, rebellion, geographical tragedies, and United States’ intervention that is really difficult to understand and reconcile. About 80% of the country lives on less than $2/day. I have been moved by Shane Clairbone's words this weekend: "If we are to truly be the church, poverty must become a face we recognize as our own kin," and he talks about how we quickly give to charity, but don't really KNOW the poor. as a wealthy north american, this has really been convicting me. I look forward to spending time with political officers, speakers, and Nicaraguans to hear their perspectives on the difficult situation their country is continuing to experience.

Immigration from Nicaragua to Costa Rica is a HUGE topic of discussion here and from my perspective seems to be very similar to US—Mexico relations. Whenever I bring “Nicaragua” up in conversation, there is ALWAYS something to discuss so I am looking forward to talking to Nicaraguans about these issues.

I am continuing to feel blessed by the outpouring of love that I am receiving here...This semester has prompted so many questions, doubts, and deep thinking... and really struggling to understand the truth, what is justice, and what is my role in the world? In the midst of this, I have experienced God's love in special ways. I think one of the biggest is my family here who whenever they introduce me, they call me their "hija" daughter or "hermana" sister. Yesterday my host parents and I went to a house and the woman asked how many kids they had and they said "5, but 6 with our daughter Alísa" ..it was really touching and i am going to miss them while i am away.

in addition to missing them, i miss my dear friends and family from the States (and abroad in other countries too :))! thank you for your prayers, support, and love across the miles - it means so much to me.

all packed (hopefully!) for Nica :)

Hasta luego!

la belleza

gardens at ICADS (where we take our Spanish classes)

i'm living in a beautiful place with beautiful people.

special tico things

volcán arenal

sid the sloth (or in spanish "perezoso") - spotted at the house we stayed at this weekend when we visited a city nearby volcán arenal

Things I love:

Breakfast with my parents. breakfast in the US is almost always “do-it-yourself” (except for special occasions) because we all leave the house at different times in the morning, eat different things, etc. i love eating breakfast with my mami and papi every morning, knowing what to put on the table, and how to make coffee using a "choreado." my dad has tortillas almost every morning and i now know that he likes to heat them up, i love the pineapple jam I have with my bread every day, and my papi has a special sugar that he puts in his coffee (i reminded him to take it with us when we went away this weekend). i don’t have early class every day, but I enjoy getting up at the same time so I get to eat with them.

i love being at my home. sometimes i use my parents’ stationary bike while watching episodes of Friends (WITH Spanish subtitles, rest assured!), or being in my room and working on homework, writing emails, or blogging ;). i am so grateful that i have my own room here – most LASP students do, but some share with siblings. i am blessed to have this space where i can have some time to myself :)

i love rice. i eat it almost every lunch and dinner and today i learned the exact portions (we make it with onion, oil, pepper, and garlic – yum!) also loving gallo pinto (rice & beans with some other special flavors), and Chiky’s cookies (all over Central America – bringing me back to my time in Guatemala), and so many other things…

i love (most days) walks to our Spanish classes in the afternoons. the walk is about 45 minutes from LASP and while at times it feels a little long, i have had some wonderful conversations with new friends during these trails and am grateful for this time to talk, process, and digest all of the stuff that we are learning. there isn’t a lot of time to do this between classes and homework, and what we are learning about is really challenging so I am thankful that i have this time.

loving and missing isaac

this picture was taken some years ago at the santa barbara zoo. you can't tell, but this was the giraffe exhibit and isaac was proudly (and appropriately) wearing his giraffe t-shirt. we had a lot of fun.

other memories of sweet isaac:

i remember when he was born. we were in the middle of our home re-model and our answering machine was in the living room and i saw "1" beeping and waited excitedly with the family to see if that was "the call" to tell us if he was born...and sure enough it was! We were SO excited. It wasn't for another four months until i got to hold him, but i loved looking at the pictures, hearing everyone's stories of what he was like in the meantime..and then finally meeting him for the first time at christmas.

tanya + isaac = bff some kids are petrified of animals. isaac? absolutely not! i loved when he and tanya would sit together and tanya would lick his entire face and he would just laugh. it was the sweetest sound.

blonde curls: the most adorable hair-do

i think one of the best words to describe him would be joy: not only the joy that he was, but the joy that he gave to his family...and i really, really miss that. i miss seeing him laugh, seeing his smile and adorable face. but i also really miss seeing his family laugh with him and ooh & ahh over all the special things he did and learned.

i love you, dear isaac william and i miss you.

economics is on my mind

[photo: view from my room!]

Ethics tells us that it is a duty to work; economics tells us that full employment is highly unlikely. Ethics tells us that we should ship our surplus grain overseas to share it with those in need; economics tells us that food gifts depress prices, thereby discouraging the farmers of the countries to which the gifts are sent. Ethics says that we should care for those who are unable to care for themselves; economics says that social welfare programs are inflationary… (139)

--Howard Richards “Adam Smith, Milton Friedman, and Christian Economics”

I have always wanted to be good at economics however these classes have never been easy for me. Through the hours of aplia homework and working with my econ TAs and teachers, I am fortunate to have a little context on this important issue (although I wish it were more!!) – I know it’s important and I know it’s relevant, but the logistics give me a headache.

One of our main assignments in my core seminar class is to write a “position paper.” We all chose from many different topics – Latin American history, women in Latin America, sustainable development, religion in LA, Christian responses to non-violence, etc. etc. I chose the topic “The Bible and Economic Systems” and little did I know that this topic would take over my thinking for the following 5 weeks.

While the book I was given comes from the liberation theology perspective, I am trying to balance my research with some other readings about ethics, religion, and economic systems. and while I am reading these books I am asking so many questions…

What is the role of the state? What is the state supposed to provide for its citizens? Is comparative advantage just? How can an economy promote justice when we are all self-interested? What is economic justice? Is a better economic system the answer for ending poverty and injustice? What do we do about profits?—we need these, but they also seem to be the problem for so much inequity in the world…is there such thing as true economic partnership between countries? (or is partnership too friendly of a word because we are only self-interested?) What is diplomacy?

The needs of our times, both in practical socio-economic matters and in terms of theory, call for a more generous definition of our science. We need a new economic vision that does not limit itself to observing and explaining market behavior or to theoretical speculations about how to best satisfy a society composed of bloodless Economic Men. What we need, instead, is a science that treats people as holistic individuals with a structure of basic needs and an inborn potential to grow towards higher levels of being and more fulfilled lives. Injecting life into the mechanistic core of economics is a challenging and desperately needed task; it is the challenge of humanizing economics (98)

Mark Lutz and Kenneth Lux “The Economic Problem: Yesterday and Tomorrow”

These quotes are taken from a book I am reading: Through the Eye of a Needle: Readings on Stewardship and Justice, compiled by the Dept. of Economics & Business at Calvin College. I like the above idea of seeing economic activity from a more holistic perspective – there is more to it than markets, trade agreements, comparative advantage, supply/demand curves: there is this basic human aspect of work and contribution to society (and so much more than that, but i'm probably getting ahead of myself here...)

how it all works, I don’t know…but i have 10-15 pages to work [some] of that out ;)